I Didn’t Know Where to Start… So I Started Here…
Sometimes the hardest part isn’t knowing what to say or do… it’s allowing yourself to begin before feeling completely ready.
Hi Beautiful Souls,
It’s been a while since I’ve written here.
Not because I didn’t know what to write… but because I didn’t know which story to share with you. Perfectionism crept in. Overthinking followed.
I wanted everything to feel meaningful, relevant, beautiful… something that could truly serve you. And somewhere in that process, I got stuck. Maybe you know that feeling too.
When you have so many ideas, so many dreams, so much inspiration inside of you… but instead of creating, you freeze.
You overthink. You question yourself.
You wonder:
Will anyone care? Will this make sense? What if it’s not good enough?
And somehow, the pressure to make something perfect stops us from beginning at all. That’s been me lately. Not lacking inspiration… but overwhelmed by it.
There were so many things I wanted to share:
my recent training in Thailand
thoughts about practice and awareness
creating a balance between strength and softness
lessons from teaching
lessons from motherhood
lessons from simply being human
But instead of starting, I kept waiting for the “perfect” first post. And maybe there is no perfect beginning.
Maybe the practice is simply beginning anyway.
Where it began
Many years ago, a friend once asked me: “Nok, what’s your passion?” I paused. At that time, I felt almost shy to say it out loud… because deep down, I didn’t believe I could actually follow it.
I think many of us have passions we quietly hold close to our hearts because we’re afraid they’re unrealistic. Afraid we are “too late.” Afraid we are not talented enough. Afraid life will never allow space for them.
But I answered: “Writing.” Even saying it felt vulnerable.
A few days later, he gave me a notebook with a handwritten note encouraging me to begin. I still remember that feeling. Holding the notebook in my hands and thinking:
How? Where do I even start? What do I write about?
Life? Travel? The things that make me feel alive?
At the time, I didn’t realise that writing didn’t need to be perfect.
It just needed to be honest. And honestly… maybe that’s true for life too.
So I started
And maybe this is me starting again.
Not perfectly. Not with all the answers. Not knowing exactly where this will go.
But honestly. And maybe that’s enough.
Thank you for being here. Thank you for reading. Thank you for being part of ETL Balance.
May your life unfold in a way that supports your growth… and no matter what happens— I know you’ve got this 🤍
With love and gratitude,
Hari Om Tat Sat
Nok x
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